Happy Wednesday everyone,
Last week was heavy. I was going through so many transitions. I had no idea how to pick myself up from the hell I’ve been experiencing. It honestly felt like everything was happening to me all at once and completely out of my control. The good news is this is a new week. I started out the week with two second interviews for two really great companies. Now I’m just waiting to hear back about both positions.
This week I have had to really practice patience. I’ve taken this time to pray and trust that God has the rest under control. Patience is a virtue especially when it comes to faith. I have faith that everything will work out for the best. I’ve been working out, reading, cleaning, and binging shows trying to keep myself busy. I’ve also been applying to jobs and working on my own creative projects. I’m still door dashing to help me out financially. I’ve had time to breathe and really sit with everything that has happened.
Everyone told me this was really a blessing in disguise but initially I didn’t see it that way. At the time all I could think about was losing my steady income and medical benefits. But now I can say that this has been the best thing that has happened to me. I’m starting to feel like myself again. I no longer feel trapped in a toxic environment. I no longer wake up everyday dreading going to work. I no longer have to feel demeaned, disrespected, and talked down to. I no longer feel emotionally drained during the week. I’m starting to feel creative and inspired again. I’m going on job interviews with companies who actually make me feel excited. I feel like not only will I thrive in these positions, I can look forward to being on a team I can learn from.
The theme of the week is patience. I believe God has a great plan for me but it’s going to take a great deal of patience. I will do great things. I will go far. I will not only be successful but I will have a great impact on my community. With that being said, it’s all going to require patience.
We live in a society where everything is ‘hot and ready’. Everyone is an overnight success. Everything is new and innovative. Our world moves real fast. People are constantly posting their good news and sharing their amazing milestones. It’s easy to feel like you are being stagnant, like you aren’t going anywhere or doing anything. That is false. We are all growing. No matter the amount or the speed, we are constantly evolving. We aren’t the same person we were yesterday, last week, last month, last year or 5 years ago. Try not to get so caught up in comparing and contrasting. Be proud of where you are compared to where you came from.
Last night I reminisced on when Aaron and I first met 3 1/2 years ago. I was working at Forever 21 and I hated it. LOL Although I met some really dope individuals while working at F21, I had bigger plans. At the time, I was making minimum wage, I didn’t have a car and getting my own place felt impossible. I used to apply to office jobs in the financial district and not even get a response. It felt like getting a job at an office in downtown San Francisco was impossible. My degree honestly felt worthless. I remember thinking, I went to school and have all these student loans just to work retail. Since leaving Forever 21, I have landed multiple salaried positions with amazing medical benefits. I’ve done it before and I will do it again. But what I refuse to do is settle for less than I deserve.
I know God has a plan but He needs me to trust Him fully. I day dreamed about quitting my job everyday but stayed out of fear. I was afraid to give up my steady pay check and benefits. I didn’t want to leave without a back up plan. Fear kept me in a place I was unhappy and to my surprise I was forced out. It’s like looking down not ready to jump and somebody coming to push you. Being uncomfortable is scary but necessary to grow to the next level. Do not allow fear to keep you trapped in a place of misery. It’s true what they say ‘everything you want is on the other side of fear’.
Nothing happens overnight. No matter how it may seem everything takes some hard work and patience. Normally the things worth having are the things we have to wait for. Patience, God and the universe are moving everything around in your favor.
Let God do his job. Keep manifesting and putting in work.
Thanks for reading & we’ll talk more next week!