Happy Wednesday everyone!
It’s been a pretty productive week for me so far. Creatively, physically and emotionally I feel like I’ve made some significant progress.
As I mentioned last week, I wasn’t feeling well so I went to my doctor’s office for a routine check up. Everything checked out great better than I expected actually. After getting my blood test results back my cholesterol is lower than it should be so I’ve been changing my eating habits and taking multivitamins. I am working on my physical health and it feels good.
Since leaving the Law Firm, I’ve switch health insurance and I am back at Kaiser now. Which I’m happy to be back at a hospital I’m familiar with, I knew nothing about Sutter Health and Cigna insurance. lol During my doctor visit I asked my physician about Kaiser therapists. She seemed happy that I asked and advised me to check out their Mind and Body Health Classes in the Behavioral Health Department. Today is my first session. It’s a 6 week class. I was apprehensive about group therapy sessions but my doctor recommended I try the classes before one on one therapy.
I wrote a blog last year about trying to find a therapist (Too Broke for Therapy). So I am excited for this mental progress and the overall experience. I figured I need to talk to someone about all the changes that I’ve been dealing with recently like losing my grandma. I have writing to help cope but it won’t hurt to try talking with a professional.
Speaking of progress, I have took another leap of faith this year and finally started my Youtube channel. I’ve been told for yeeeaaarrrs I should start a Youtube channel but the thought of speaking in front on video scares me. Blogging for this past year has really built my confidence and let me know it is okay to spread my wings. I have to stop getting in my own way. There’s nothing to it but to do it.
I ordered my studio equipment for my apartment. I will be turning my living room into a studio! Aaron is already making it an art studio lol so why not set up cameras, lighting and really get things poppin’! No more excuses! I am so excited for what is coming. I have the time, space, and confidence in myself to really get things started! I will no longer stand in my own way. Since I’ve been step out on faith, God has never let me down.
Yesterday, I asked my Instagram followers:
What’s something you’ve always wanted to do? (If time and money wasn’t an issue)
I received so many great responses like build community organizations, travel, make music, write and produce movies, move away, etc.
I felt so inspired after reading the responses but I was left thinking, what’s stopping us?
What’s holding us back from doing the things we’ve imagined? Excuses, honestly.
The real truth is we harp on excuses and let them hold us back.
Time? For the amount of time we scroll social media or just plain lolly gag, we could use that to actually work toward our goals.
Money? Not having the money is also a great excuse. We blow money on things we don’t need way too much to complain about not having enough money to invest in our future.
The time is now.
Bills are only going to keep piling up and time will continue to be wasted.
Work toward your goals RIGHT NOW! Research, seek advice, and at least take the first step. Why wait?
Want to travel internationally? Well the first step is buying a passport.
Want to start a non profit? Well the first step is researching how it’s done. You don’t have to be a millionaire or a celebrity to have a non profit. Research government grants in your industry.
Want to start a blog? Well the first step is buying your domain. Which doesn’t have to be expensive.
We have so many resources at our fingertips that we aren’t putting to use. It is room for us ALL to win! There’s no harm in supporting and uplifting each other’s dreams. It isn’t easy stepping out of faith and doing things for the very first time. Experiencing new and new things that the generation before you hasn’t done can be challenging. Although it is scary there is beauty in stepping out.
Doing the things you’ve imagined doesn’t always go how you expect it but we learn through failure. We learn from being uncomfortable. We learn from having courage to do things that scare us. We learn from doing it anyway no matter how many people doubt us. We learn from going down the road less traveled, walking alone and being different.
I’ve lost friends and family close to me. I’ve cried and felt alone more than I wish to admit. I’ve been fearful and scared of things more than I show. But I have strong faith. I trust God totally and I know He knows what is best for me. Nothing I am experiencing or going through is on accident and I am a living testimony every day. I try new things and sometimes I fail but I don’t give up. Fail or lose I gain knowledge to help others.
Shout out to Solange’s new album/film ‘When I Get Home’, her creativity is always an inspiration. I am forever motivated to be myself no matter how weird or different I may be .
I was watching ‘The Incredible Jessica James’ on Netflix which is a good movie btw but this quote stuck out to me:
“This is your one and only life, what do you want to tell people?”
Thanks for reading & we’ll talk more next week!