Happy Wednesday everyone!
On this week’s episode of “My Life is a Hot Mess” I finally got another job! After two weeks of unemployment. I MADE IT! I was sent a job offer from an non profit organization called Community & Youth Outreach (CYO). According to my friend I work at ‘We Got Y’all” like Issa on Insecure HBO *laughing emoji* So far my few weeks has gone really great. It’s a black owned non profit and I was referred by my dad’s friend so I already feel like part of the family. On my second day, I was introduced to the office during a staff meeting. I also was put on the spot during an ice breaker game called fish bowl where everyone go around the room and ask me a question. LOL it wasn’t as bad as it sounds.
My last week unemployed I signed up for Door Dash and I completed 84 deliveries in my first week! I barely got any sleep and I was out until 3 AM most nights but I was determined. I have bills that need to be paid. I made $700 dollars in 5 1/2 days. In the words of Nipsey Hussle “Hustle and Motivate” lol
On top of delivering for Door Dash, I have been focused on planning these launch parties for Claim Your Crown Fest! I am so excited for everything we have been cooking up for this November!
My friend Ayana and I have been working hard to coordinate two Claim Your Crown Fest launch parties. Our first launch party will be in Sacramento on November 4th and our second launch party will be in Oakland on November 18th. We have natural product sponsors, business vendors, live performers, food, drinks, live hair tutorials and more activities set up for these events. It is exciting but stressful planning something from scratch with a very small budget and limited help but we are making it happen!
Shout out to Ayana’s wife Melanie for making our bomb ass logo!
& Shout out to my business partner Ayana for making our event flyers and putting up with my craziness.
All the chaos in my life lately has really forced me to snap out of feeling like I have to always be so in control. I cannot control anyone but myself. I cannot control everything that goes on around me.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
It is a struggle learning and grasping the concept that things don’t go according to our plan and that’s okay. I do not know what tomorrow holds therefore I cannot possibly have my life planned out. Letting go of the story or fairy tale I’ve tried to create for myself. There’s no such thing as the perfect job. There’s no such thing as the perfect relationship. There’s no special order or formula on how to do things. I have no idea where life will look like next year, next month, or next week and that is okay.
Now is the time to do all the things I’ve always wanted to do, even the things that scare me. I want to take advantage of right now. Live and enjoy the NOW. This is the time to focus on me and my happiness. Life will happen exactly how it is supposed to happen. Rushing and worrying only complicates things more.
“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”
Matthew 6:31-34 NLT
Slowing down is my main concern right now. Being gentle with myself. Giving my self the space to make mistakes. We learn through failure so nothing that I am going through is in no way a reason to give up or wallow in a negative head space.
Once my medical insurance from this new job kicks in I am seriously going to seek out a therapist because I know I deal with anxiety a lot and I have been for a while now. Sometimes my thoughts are overwhelming. I am all over the place and I try to carry everything on my shoulders. I can’t do everything. It’s time to exhale and give my worries to God. He is the only one that can take my pain away.
Today’s ‘Verse of the Day’ via YouVersion the Bible app reads:
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” 1 Peter 5:7 NIV
Right now, I am juggling a lot of life changes some good some bad but I am still blessed beyond measure. These days I am doing alot of reading, breathing, and being still. God is sitting me down for a reason. He is revealing things to me and moving things around for my future. My life is in transition which can be a scary, unknown, and hopeful feeling. I’ll never lose hope. I’ll never stop working hard. I’ll never stop celebrating the small wins. I will not let my light be dimmed by a little darkness. This time of the year gets rough for everyone. So many people I know are going through similar situations but I am here to tell you guys, WE GOT THIS! It’s easy to get caught up in our problems and forget how blessed we truly are.
Fight through the darkness, always be the light.
Thanks for reading & we’ll talk more next week!