I Can’t Right Now

Happy Wednesday everyone!

This weekend I drove to LA and attended Kid Fury’s 305Live pool party!! The pool party was so black and so fun! Although I was at a party full of strangers it felt more like a family reunion. There were no bad vibes AT ALL! No fights, no drama just good clean west coast fun.

Everyone looked cute in their swimsuits. No one was sitting around being boogie… we drank, ate, and got in the pool. (who said black people don’t swim at pool parties??) We did the electric slide and the wobble. Water gun fights, people getting thrown in the pool, girls twerking while everybody hyped them, just hella turnt. It really felt  like a lit ass get together or bbq more than a LA pool party.

My cousin had a drop top mustang for the weekend so we were really feeling ourselves. After the party, we drove to Venice beach, watched the sunset and ate dinner on the pier. It was just an amazing Los Angeles Sunday driving with the top down.

Suns out, buns out!




But now that I’m back home I feel like it’s impossible to catch up some much needed rest after I’ve been going going going these past few weeks. I just need time to decompress.


I didn’t realize how difficult keeping up with my blog would be once life start throwing more at me.

Besides traveling, partying, and camping I’ve had to deal with sickness in the family, planning events for work, personal projects, and collabs with local artists. Although it is all very fulfilling, my energy levels have been pretty low lately.

Part of my self care is reminding myself I don’t have to be everything for everyone. I cannot be superwoman. Most women try to be everything all the time and end up running themselves into the ground. Taking time for ourselves is a must.

On my drive back from LA this weekend, I listened to the hey, girl podcast by Alex Elle and like always it gave me so much life! She spoke about being honest with herself when she just can’t do everything. As a writer, someday’s when she has nothing to write she just simply write the words “I can’t” in her journal. Realistically we all have those days sometimes weeks, months, maybe even a whole year when you just can’t.

Let’s be honest with ourselves and allow ourselves the space and time to stop and recharge.

Update: I am still waiting on the photos from camp so I can write my recap but I have some great blog post content in the works!

Everyone please pray for my auntie she is battling some critical health conditions but she’s a fighter. God always got her. Her health has really put family in perspective for me and I’ve been spending more time with my loved ones because life is short.

Life has been busy but I am enjoying every minute of it. I can honestly say it can be alot to juggle sometimes but this is everything I asked God for. I am working for a great company and making memories that will last a lifetime. I’m tired but I’m happy.

I am still keeping my promise to write a blog every week. Some weeks posts are shorter than others, some weeks posts are more creative than others but my goal is to always keep it real with my readers.

I am building a career, networking, and working hard. It is expected that sometimes I will struggle. There will be long nights, early morning, and I will lose sleep doing what I love BUT rest is a necessity!

I recently experienced heat exhaustion while working at our summer camp. (I will talk more about it in my camp recap post.) But while I was having fun, working and enjoying camp, I wasn’t taking enough time out to take care of myself. Unfortunately, I often get so focused on my tasks and juggling life, I forget to take care of me first. The reality is we aren’t built to do it all.

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Too often my plans overlap, I try to be everywhere at the same time and make it to everything. Well I plan on relaxing and getting some sleep on this upcoming 3 day weekend.

As a creative and professional my biggest struggle has always been: balance. How can I effectively balance a social life, family & friends, a relationship, bills, finances, exercising, car maintenance, taking care of myself and a career?

We’re all trying our best to figure it out.

Sidenote: I was trying to find the perfect cover art for this post and I came across all these funny ass black comics on

The cover art I chose can be certainly be interpreted in many different ways but I thought it is a perfect image for a content creator who has clearly over it! lol

I decided to do my research to find out more about the artist, and guess what… she is a local Bay Area artist and professor at Laney College! Look at God.

Please check out Julianna “Jewels” Smith at

Thanks for reading & we’ll talk more next week!



As a child I wanted to help the world. I wanted to be a neonatal pediatrician. I wanted to travel the world to help women and children during labor and delivery. I watched a tv special on Oprah about women and children in other countries dying at alarming rates during child birth because of lack of resources and I was inspired to somehow save the world one baby at a time. Since then, my vision has slightly changed. My profession isn’t in medicine but I still want to improve women’s health. My focus is still the same, I still have a dream of changing the world. I have now taken a natural holistic approach to tackling women’s health. Beauty and fashion has been a hobby turned obsession of mine. From reading magazines to wardrobe styling to modeling to orchestrating runway shows I dedicated my whole life to the beauty and fashion industry. As time passed, I began to search for the deeper meaning behind the intricate fabrics, fancy shoes, hair and makeup. I have found that health, beauty and fashion are more connected than I thought. My outlet is writing. Through my writing I hope to spark minds and impact individuals to dig deeper.

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