Happy Wednesday everyone,
On today’s episode of my chaotic life, I’ve been dealing with family issues. Nothing too big and nothing that can’t be ignored. LOL I’m really great at ignoring stuff and praying it goes away. Problem is I can’t do that when I’ve been preaching and practicing self care and healing. I don’t want to keep running away from the things that bother me and not expecting them to bubble back up to the surface. I want to talk to trained professional on how to best handle the bs.
I’ve been calling around trying to find a good therapist and all it made me realize is… I need to go back to church.
I was told finding a therapist is like dating. It will take time until you find the right one for you. And that is so REAL!
When it comes to a therapist I want:
- chemistry – I want someone who will understand what I am going through or at least get it.
- I prefer a black woman.
- Someone who works around my work schedule.
- Someone who works in the Bay Area.
- And someone who takes my insurance!!
I really don’t think that is asking for TOO much. But trying to find a therapist with all of these qualities has been close to impossible. I’ve even considered compromising some of my wants. Still no luck.
What is the use of having medical insurance if therapists insist on saying “I don’t take insurance”… I work 40 hours a week especially for medical insurance. ARGH!!!
I don’t know who can afford therapy for $150 an hour but I sure in the hell can’t. I just have some things I need to get off my chest preferably to a licensed professional. No I do not want to try online therapists or text therapists I really would love to get to know and talk to someone face to face. Although I am a millennial and I understand we do EVERYTHING online, I still value intimate conversation. I like hearing someone’s voice and being able to have verbal and non verbal communication in a person.
I’m working on balance and transition. I would love to learn more about positive coping. Diversity and inviting change in all aspects of life. I want to learn how to not let things bother me so easily. I want to speak with trained professionals who can break down certain principles to me. Being the first to do alot of things in my family is hard when there’s no one can understand where I’m coming from. I’m juggling alot and sometimes I just need an unbiased educated opinion. Being in a creative career often mean taking alot of risks… well I would love to have someone to talk to about the chaos that comes with those risks. Friends and family can’t always relate. I know I have an amazing support system but honestly I don’t want or need everyone’s opinion on what and how I should do things, especially if they have never experienced it themselves.
No one is going to be able to relate to us completely. No one has walked the exact same path as me, I know. But I do plan to find a good therapist to share some of these burdens with.
I’ve spoke with a therapist before as a child and later as a teenager. Adjusting has always been tough for me to get used to. I’ve been through alot of life changes, sometimes abrupt or traumatic changes. I’m pretty sure it’s time I go talk to someone again. It has been over 10 years.
When I spoke with therapists in the past, I had the luxury of being on my parents medical insurance *rolls eyes*. Now that I am an “adult” I have to figure this part out.
My mom told me to ask my job if they offer EAP or MHN which are both therapy insurance. So that’s the next step in this process. I am determined to get this figured out and I will keep you all updated on my progress.
This week’s post was a little late because I am still getting settled into my new job so please be patient with me. Writing blog posts every week and keeping up with my new work load is becoming a bit of a challenge. But I am proud to announce that I am now on the company’s website!!
I also helped set up my first company event, an APW x Crate & Barrel Wedding Registry Party!
So far everything at work has been so amazingg! I am learning so much and working on so many new and exciting projects! We are preparing for our Women’s Summer Camp next month! My first time camping and it’s a work event! #lit
My interest in therapy does not mean my life is horrible. It doesn’t mean I am suffering. Let’s kill the stigma that therapy is a bad thing. I’m not experiencing incredibly bad trauma or crazy life events, I just want to talk to a professional about life. Just how we get regular physical check-ups and routine dentist appointments, we should be doing the same with our mental health.
For anyone also looking for therapists here’s the site I’ve been browsing: therapyforblackgirls.com/
I hope we all find what we need. In the mean time I’m going to make an effort to go back to church on Sunday’s, it’s cheaper.
Thanks for reading guys & we’ll talk more next week!