This week’s blog will be in celebration of my Aries lover. We aren’t quite Jay & Bey On The Run so we’ll be Aaron & Talisha On The Jog. 😂
March 22, 1992 the day a King was born 👑
I’m still getting comfortable with PDA lol so bare with me being in my feelings on this post. I’m still shy about sharing all these personal feelings lol but just know he’s special y’all.
We met on Easter, March 27, 2016. That day a seed was planted. Every since we have been watering and nurturing this seed.
For anyone who has ever raised a plant you know it takes alot of patience, time, water, good soil, tender love, care, more patience, sunlight and alot more depending on what you’re planting. Sometimes the plant needs repotting, more sun, less sun, weeding, change the soil, not enough water, too much water, etc. Things get hard but we get through. Regardless if the leaves are fully bloomed or barely budding the time, effort, and hard work is what keeps us going.
Here’s something I wrote him last year for his birthday:
I support you in any and everything you do. Before you I wasn’t in favor of public displays of affection. But you came and i felt safe with you. You made me feel comfortable opening up with not only you but with the world. I have always been against nude anything. I was always taught to “leave something to the imagination” I never showed anything more than my belly arms and legs or a bikini at the beach. I was very reserved about the kind of modeling I wanted to do because my name my image and my self respect means alot to me. I never even shared my writing with anyone out of fear of being judged. But I found freedom in you and security in showing your art off through body painting. You gave me the courage and freedom to feel I could do anything. I wasn’t ashamed and I support your work with pride. No matter if its body painting poetry a media company or even a restaurant lol i support any vision or dream you have babe. (Of course I’d want to research it and study it first) but it’s always you and me against the world. You make me feel like i truly can fly. The sky is the limit and I want to make you feel the same. Together we can tackle anything and everything. I endure alot more than you’ll ever know to keep us happy and growing together. As a woman especially a black woman the cards are already stacked against me and being apart of black love the world is already waiting on the day we fail. So when I tell you this relationship and you mean everything to me. It is because I have already given so much and worked so hard to make sure we are building a strong foundation for not only ourselves but our future family. I am no longer thinking or working for just myself I try to include you in everything I do. I am now working toward building something that neither one of us had. We both come from broken homes, we know the pain it brings. Our parents did a great job with what they had but it is up to us to work hard to provide more for our kids. My mom always told me she did everything in her power to work and make a better life for me and my sister. I now feel that same sense of responsibility. I’ve always felt that way but it feels so much better having someone by my side to grow and build with. I don’t expect it to be perfect or easy i just want us to work thru it together. ❤️ I love you babe. Happy 1 year and i pray for a million more with you.
Now here we are a year later.
2 years deep.
Learning more about each other.
Still growing that seed.
Still creating together. Still building with one another.
I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t hard or scary or a challenge but nothing worth having comes easy right?
When I’m thinking too much, I write everything down. I have a notebook full of my thoughts about our relationship. My notebook is full of my fears as well as things I look forward to. lol being in love is a really crazy feeling. I jotted down this short poem the other day:
I hestitate to give you my all
It’s a scary feeling
To be vulnerable
To trust completely
Foreign for me
I’ve never seen it done successfully
At times fears are loud
Im not perfect
I overthink everything
I think this poem perfectly describe my year two challenges. Building a “healthy” relationship is sooooo much pressure. Family and friends have questions, inquires, and “advice”. We are still young so most times we are looking at each other like “idk”. lol
Love sometimes gets tangled in the static. Searching for the answer in books, seminars, and talk shows only make things more and more complicated. The fun turns into expectations and responsibilities.
Tuning out all the noise, we have to remember to not lose sight of each other. Always keep in mind the beginning, where love first blossomed. That seed has now grew a little and spouted a few new leaves but it is still new and trying to figure out how to survive the different seasons. So we water, repot, replace the soil, give it tender love, care, a little weeding and make sure to give it enough sunlight.
13 is a significant number for me because I was born on Friday the 13th.
It’s no coincidence that in the Bible, there are 13 verses that make up the 13th chapter of 1 Corinthians and this is considered the love chapter. No matter how foreign or how scary the road may get 1 Corinthians reminds us that:
Love Is the Greatest
1If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;a but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.
4Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
8Prophecy and speaking in unknown languagesb and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! 9Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! 10But when the time of perfection comes, these partial things will become useless.
11When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.c All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
13Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.
To wrap things up, he and I have both agreed that being in love is the hardest thing either of us have ever done. But I wouldn’t want it if I wasn’t being challenged.
He’s a great listener, a great friend, the most patient person I’ve ever met, and being with him makes life more colorful. He has the ability to make every person he meets smile. He is a natural motivator. He’s a critical thinker while I’m definitely a more reactive and impulsive thinker. I can always run ideas across him to get an honest opinion. He’s very creative and has an out of the box imagination. He’s supportive. He gives me the freedom to be me completely. I never feel judged or confined. He’s my number one fan. He keeps me on track. He listens and pays attention to the intricate ways of how to love me. He suffocates me with love sometimes lol
At a time in my life when I didn’t know what I wanted, he was and still is everything I needed.
Happy Birthday baby! I love you
Thanks for reading guys!
Until next Wednesday …