Art brought Aaron and I together almost 2 years ago. I was intrigued by his choice of artistry.
Aaron introduced me to the art of body painting. He asked me to be his live body paint model for his first Bay Area art show. He was presenting at the Ex’Cypher show at Expressions College for Digital Art in Emeryville, CA.
This was my first time every being body painted and it would be live in a room full of art students. I was terrified. The show was filled with student photographers, musicians, DJs, poets, videographers, a few staff members, the students’ family members, friends and film makers. I was standing in front of a big white screen with bright lights pointed directly at me. I started off wearing only nipple pasties and a black thong. My heart was beating uncontrollably and my hands were beyond sweaty. In the beginning, the paint was really cold on my skin. I was freaking out about all the eyes staring at me. But as the bright colored paint began to coat my body I became totally relaxed. I then started to realize the people staring at me were actually admiring and cheering me on. I didn’t just feel like a model, I felt like art. By the time Aaron was finish I had never felt more confident, sexy, and fearless in my life.
When it came to modeling I’ve always been reserved and worried about other people’s judgements of me. I’m not tall enough to be considered a high fashion runway model but I always wanted to appeal to top fashion print industries. My constant worry about how other people viewed me kept me limited in my career.
After over a year of us travelling to be featured in different art shows, fashion shows and art galleries, our audience has grown tremendously. I wish I could say I have been 100% confident this entire time but I haven’t. Unfortunately everyone doesn’t view freedom in art the same and when it’s your body it’s hard to ignore derogatory comments . I’ll admit I really let it bother me at first. I have to constantly remind myself other people’s small minded opinions do not define me.
I discovered that being unapologetically free, expressive, and artistic through my craft is the greatest form of personal empowerment.